If I wrote down every song or rap that has ever come to me then I would probably be able to make about 60 albums. Pretty much everyday I catch myself making music that will never be heard by ears other than mine or perhaps my wife, child, or dog. The words come from nowhere and return to nowhere after they do their job, which is to either release negativity or reveal positivity in my life. In a lot of ways it is a meditation for me. It helps me to get in line with creativity which I equate with getting in line with God.
By “freestyling” I am able to let go. My walls come down and I feel honesty flow through me. A lot of times I will have something on my mind that is tying me up mentally and allowing words to just come out of my mouth often gives me some clarity. It’s like praying or talking to a really good friend who you can say anything to. The bonus with this practice though is that I don’t end up dumping some junk on other people that they in turn have to find a way to release. Ideally the only thing I want to pass on to my friends is strength, love, hope, and peace.
Of course there are those times when you just need to talk to someone, so I thank God for giving me some great friends and a couple family members that I can lament with if necessary. But when I talk to those friends, I do so because I know that they are in the business of turning things around for good or at a minimum will keep me on my toes so that I don’t let the illusions of this world drag me down. These are people that I can ask to pray for me or with me. Ultimately, I know that the stuff that seems to drag us down in this life is meaningless, so I do everything I can not to get in a conversation with people who are just going to try to give nonsense more power than it really has.
In fact, sometimes I hope for my friends’ sake that they don’t answer the phone so that I can just work out whatever it is that’s getting me on my own and/or with God. I know what direction I am looking to go in when I reach out to them and I take responsibility for it. If they don’t pick up I still keep going toward that higher thought. I just say to myself, “I guess this song is just me” and I get to work. We all know what it’s like to get a song so stuck in our heads that it’s to the point of aggravation. Now ask yourself, would you willingly implant that song in someone else’s head just to get it out of yours? I hope not. That’s the whole point I am trying to make here.
A lot of us want to make the world a better place. I suggest starting by just working on not adding to the junk. IMHO, the world would seem to run alot smoother if we kept some stuff to ourselves. But if we can’t do that then make sure that we are talking to and listening to those who are headed where we want to go. Finally, we can follow the advice of Peter which is to “humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.” I say finally because personally I believe that God is beyond the junk we get ourselves into. Even though I know that God is always there for me, I don’t always call on God to get me out of things I got myself into simply because for the most part I knew better in the first place. I also know that if I got myself in I can get myself out if I just repent–that is turn around and go in the other direction back toward Life. Besides I know God knows my sad songs before I sing them and will take that song of lament and turn it into a song of joy instantly if I allow it. But just like I feel proud of my daughter when she realizes her errors and corrects them, I believe God feels the same. Basically I want to do the best I can with the resources I’ve been blessed with, getting closer to God because I know that’s where I belong anyway.